Sense of Security

In the beginning, there was fear.

Fear of the unknown. Fear of the past. Fear of the future. Fear of the nation .Fear of death. Fear of surviving. Fear of change. Fear of possessions. Fear of nothingness. Fear of hopelessness. Fear of loneliness. So on and so forth…

As a result of constant fear in us, our bodies had created a strong defend mechanism in protecting ourselves from all of the above. The obsession of making oneself safe lies on countering the possibilities of fear itself. Security is a fear sell. We have long taught our brains to buy security. It’s a choice between a small sure loss; the cost of the product and the larger risky loss. People tend to be risk-adverse when it comes to gain and risk seeking when it comes to losses. However, we don’t have a standard mathematical risk in our heads, the trade-off is subtle. As long as we feel good, it’s a good buy.

We buy.

Health insurance. Checked. Higher education. Checked. Decent car. Checked. Property. Checked. Household decorations and furniture. Checked. Yearly overseas trip. Checked. Latest gadgets. Checked. Wait why am i still feeling insecure? Real security cannot be obtained by material possessions. Things change.Houses can be wiped out due to calamity. Health deteriorates. Money depreciates.  What we are really buying are just minimizing losses in a larger context. It is not a solid security.


Malaysia is a multi-ethnic, multi-religious society encompasses a majority of Muslim population in most of its states and economically powerful Chinese community. Throughout the years, my country faces the challenges of sustaining the stability in both economy and crime statistic. According to a report on 2013’s Top 10 Most Dangerous City in the World, Kuala Lumpur, the capital city of Malaysia has ranked no.6th in worldwide placing. Nation security has fallen beyond 70% over the past decades with the rising of snatch thiefs, robbers, rapist, murderers, kidnapping, human trafficking and drug sellers. Corruption also plays the biggest culprit in this country. Giving bribes to buy a sense of security has become the most common misdemeanor to avoid troubles.

Where is my security?

When security becomes the focus of your life, you will devote entirely in protecting yourself. This becomes your mission. This is all you do. You find ways to get as much money as you can, store food or oil and everything else you need to feel safe. You take things from others if you have to (e.g position in corporate setting) and devise new ways to achieve your goals. You become insecure. There are people who are not like you, people whom you now call enemies. There are places you can’t go, thoughts you cannot think of, worlds you no longer inhabit and you spend your days fighting, defending territory and becoming more entrenched in your fundamental thinking.

We build walls.

You can no longer feel what others are feeling because this might shattered your heart, confuse your basic thinking and destroy the whole structure of being in a safe zone. Ideas get shorter and it gets easier to hurt people because you don’t feel them. To prevent obstacles to your security, you lock them up, humiliate them, occupy them and invade them. Then you shut down your mind for believing the truth.

In reality, you’re not one drop safer.

Real security cannot be bought, arranged or accomplished with bombs. It means contemplating death, not pretending it doesn’t exist, not running from loss, but feeling it, surrender to sorrow and entering grief. Real security is ability to tolerate mystery, complexity, ambiguity, pain and suffering. Human capabilities have limitation. We all look to a Higher calling  for a safe, assured security.

15 I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”

Genesis 28:15 New International Version (NIV)


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